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CONTENTS
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-4
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-5
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-6
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-7
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-8
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-9
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-10
FOOTNOTES
LOVE AND PAIN-1.1
LOVE AND PAIN-1.2
LOVE AND PAIN-1.3
LOVE AND PAIN-1.4
LOVE AND PAIN-1.5
LOVE AND PAIN-1.6
LOVE AND PAIN-2.1
LOVE AND PAIN-2.2
LOVE AND PAIN-2.3
LOVE AND PAIN-2.4
LOVE AND PAIN-3.1
LOVE AND PAIN-3.2
LOVE AND PAIN-3.3
LOVE AND PAIN-3.4
LOVE AND PAIN-4
LOVE AND PAIN-5.1
LOVE AND PAIN-5.2
LOVE AND PAIN-6.1
LOVE AND PAIN-6.2
LOVE AND PAIN-7
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.4
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.5
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.6
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-3
APPENDIX A-1
APPENDIX A-2-3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3-4-5-6-7
APPENDIX B HISTORY-8-9-10
APPENDIX B HISTORY-11-12
APPENDIX B HISTORY-13
APPENDIX B HISTORY-14-15
APPENDIX B HISTORY-16
APPENDIX B HISTORY-17
APPENDIX B HISTORY-18
APPENDIX B HISTORY-19
INDEX OF AUTHORS

fray. The hypogastric feeling above referred to would come 

on--which I liked and disliked at the same time. The first 

occasion on which I remember this feeling was when I got my first 

braces. Anything that harped on my sex produced it. Every time I 

received the sacrament, which I was forced to do very young, I 

repented of my intention of whoring at 18--as a man 'must' 

do--and afterward I relapsed to the expectation. Religion was a 

great reality to me, but it did not produce the radical effect 

that the development of the romantic sentiment did later on. 

(Both my wife and I became free-thinkers at about 30.) 

 

"_Age 15-17_. Read poetry and romance. Conceived a high ideal of 

faithfulness and constancy. What a mockery all this loyalty is, I 

said to myself, if a man has stultified it beforehand. That was 

no mere castle-building. I had not understood what I was about in 

expecting to whore. The critical feelings were now awakening, and 

what they produced was revulsion against the abuse of sex, which 

got stronger every year. It became plain that there would be no 

whoring or the like for me; I was far too proud and fastidious. I 

neglected my tasks, which were uncongenial, and read a great deal 

of anatomy and physiology, which stood me in good stead later. As 

I rose in the school I was surprised to find the tone worse, but 

quite at the top it was better again, and with my latest 

companions sex was never even mentioned. At 14 I had a friend who 

importuned me to come into his bed, but I never would get under 

his bedclothes, for the male sex repels me powerfully in personal 

contact; he began to talk of masturbation, and now I can 

understand what he was aiming at. But my day-dreams of nymphs and 

dryads kept me in a state of perpetual tension, and erection was 

very frequent. The early morbid admiration of delicate women 

became replaced by admiration of health and strength combined 

with grace. 

 

"_Age 17-18_. I was given a cubicle in which my neighbor on the 

right masturbated noisily two or three times a week, and the one 

on the left every night, using intermittent friction to drag it 

out longer. One night, kneeling at my bedside, saying prayers, my 

attention was divided between these and the occupation of my 

neighbor, when, after not having masturbated for four years,--the 

critical years of development,--the hand flew to the phallus and 

 

"'pulses pounding through palms and trembling 

encircling fingers' 

 

"procured, in Walt Whitman's language, 

 

"'the wholesome relief,--repose, content.' 

 

"I slept well and had a sense of elation at the proof of manhood, 

for we boys were anxious about whether we secreted semen or not. 

The sexual obsession was tempered, and about three weeks later I 

had my first 'pollution'--the 'angel of the night,' as Mantegazza 

with better sense calls it. From that time on I had pollutions 

every two or three weeks, with dreams sometimes of masturbation 

or of nymphs, or quite irrelevant matters. For a time these gave 

me perfect relief; then my 'dilectatio morosa' began to grow 

again, and the phallus would become so sensitive that working 

about on the belly would liberate the orgasm. 

 

"_Age 18-19_. I had kept on persuading myself I was not 

masturbating--avoiding the use of the hand--but now I dropped 

this pretense, and frankly conceded the need to myself. I got 

done with it in a peremptory way and thought no more of it. I had 

no evil effects, moral or physical, and my mother would often 

compliment me on my bright appearance the morning after. At that 

time the appetite matured every seven to ten days, and, though I 

dreaded the idea of slavery to it, it would have been very hard 


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