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CONTENTS
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-4
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-5
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-6
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-7
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-8
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-9
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-10
FOOTNOTES
LOVE AND PAIN-1.1
LOVE AND PAIN-1.2
LOVE AND PAIN-1.3
LOVE AND PAIN-1.4
LOVE AND PAIN-1.5
LOVE AND PAIN-1.6
LOVE AND PAIN-2.1
LOVE AND PAIN-2.2
LOVE AND PAIN-2.3
LOVE AND PAIN-2.4
LOVE AND PAIN-3.1
LOVE AND PAIN-3.2
LOVE AND PAIN-3.3
LOVE AND PAIN-3.4
LOVE AND PAIN-4
LOVE AND PAIN-5.1
LOVE AND PAIN-5.2
LOVE AND PAIN-6.1
LOVE AND PAIN-6.2
LOVE AND PAIN-7
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.4
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.5
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.6
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-3
APPENDIX A-1
APPENDIX A-2-3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3-4-5-6-7
APPENDIX B HISTORY-8-9-10
APPENDIX B HISTORY-11-12
APPENDIX B HISTORY-13
APPENDIX B HISTORY-14-15
APPENDIX B HISTORY-16
APPENDIX B HISTORY-17
APPENDIX B HISTORY-18
APPENDIX B HISTORY-19
INDEX OF AUTHORS

to hide their most intimate embraces from the observation of 

others. Indeed, I went farther than that, and even came to regard 

the absence of all shame between us as akin to the primeval 

innocence which Adam and Eve exhibited before the Fall. I 

believed for long that we two were specially privileged and 

possessed a peculiar sense denied to other boys, for I had never 

heard of masturbation till I learnt, not the word indeed, but the 

thing itself. 

 

"My curiosity about the real nature of sexual union in the case 

of human beings set my intelligence to work at the interesting 

problem, and by carefully studying certain parts of the Bible, 

Lempriere's classical and other dictionaries, as well as by 

persistently watching when I could the amorous proceedings of 

domestic animals, I learnt enough to make its most prominent 

features pretty clear before I was 11 years of age. I was then 

all eagerness to have the opportunity of inspecting at close 

quarters the genitals of women or young girls, and a stay at the 

seaside when I was 12 made the latter at least feasible. When the 

shore was nearly deserted, between 1 and 2 P.M., the daughters of 

the fisherfolk used to besiege the bathing machines and disport 

themselves in the water, bathing and paddling in various stages 

of nudity. I would pretend that my whole attention was being 

given to the making of miniature tunnels in the sand, while all 

the time I slyly peeped at what I most desired to see, whether in 

front or from behind, as the dancing damsels stood upright or 

stooped till their haunches were higher than their heads. I had 

already read something somewhere about the _clitoris_, and wanted 

especially to see it, but indistinct glimpses were all that I 

could obtain; nor was it until I visited an anatomical museum, 

which then existed at the top of the Haymarket in London, that I 

learned, a good many years later, from several life-sized models 

there displayed, the characteristic features of that part, as 

well as the abnormal modifications to which it is subject, either 

congenitally or in consequence of profligate habits. I was 15, I 

think, when I first came to know that girls can masturbate as 

well as boys. 

 

"Long after I had realized why the terms male and female are so 

distinguished, my imagination was occupied with the possible 

postures in which the act of copulation may be accomplished by a 

man and woman; from Horace, Lucretius, Martial, Aristophanes, 

and, above all, from Ovid's _Ars Amatoria_ I obtained much, but 

not always very clear, information while still a schoolboy. This 

was supplemented later by photographic pictures from Pompeiian 

brothels and photographs from life, purchased at Florence and 

gloated over one night, with twice-repeated masturbation, and 

afterward destroyed in a revulsion of shame. 

 

"But while continuing to practise self-abuse (with a certain 

degree of restraint indeed, but seldom less often than once or 

even twice a week), after I had been made fully aware of its 

perils by Dr. Adam Clarke's alarming comments on Genesis xxxviii, 

9, when I was about 12 or 13, I never had connection with a woman 

until I married somewhat late in life. This abstinence was not 

due to any frigidity of disposition, but from prudential and 

religious motives, and, to some extent perhaps, from the 

imperfect but genuine satisfaction afforded by solitary 

indulgence. My imagination, like that of young J.J. Rousseau, as 

set forth in his _Confessions_, was allowed free scope for its 

exercise, but in practice I confined myself to what seemed to me 

comparatively innocent as compared with fornication. I was never 

an unreserved 'exhibitionist' like Rousseau, but I have on more 


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