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CONTENTS
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-4
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-5
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-6
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-7
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-8
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-9
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-10
FOOTNOTES
LOVE AND PAIN-1.1
LOVE AND PAIN-1.2
LOVE AND PAIN-1.3
LOVE AND PAIN-1.4
LOVE AND PAIN-1.5
LOVE AND PAIN-1.6
LOVE AND PAIN-2.1
LOVE AND PAIN-2.2
LOVE AND PAIN-2.3
LOVE AND PAIN-2.4
LOVE AND PAIN-3.1
LOVE AND PAIN-3.2
LOVE AND PAIN-3.3
LOVE AND PAIN-3.4
LOVE AND PAIN-4
LOVE AND PAIN-5.1
LOVE AND PAIN-5.2
LOVE AND PAIN-6.1
LOVE AND PAIN-6.2
LOVE AND PAIN-7
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.4
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.5
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.6
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-3
APPENDIX A-1
APPENDIX A-2-3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3-4-5-6-7
APPENDIX B HISTORY-8-9-10
APPENDIX B HISTORY-11-12
APPENDIX B HISTORY-13
APPENDIX B HISTORY-14-15
APPENDIX B HISTORY-16
APPENDIX B HISTORY-17
APPENDIX B HISTORY-18
APPENDIX B HISTORY-19
INDEX OF AUTHORS

my first lapse from virtue that I burnt my leg with a red-hot 

poker, and I bear the scar still. On leaving school I went to 

Germany and there had my first coitus with a woman, a fat old 

German who gave me very little satisfaction. My next, a Jewess, 

gave me more than I asked for, in the shape of a soft chancre. In 

my ignorance I never had it treated, but it must have been very 

mild, for it disappeared of its own accord. When cramming in 

England I occasionally went home with a prostitute, but did not 

care much about them and could not afford good ones. On one 

occasion I was impotent. It may have been through drink, but it 

disgusted me with myself. I liked seeing the women naked, and 

always insisted that they should strip, especially the breasts, 

which I liked large and full. I had not learned to kiss on the 

lips, and had no desire to kiss the body, except the breasts, 

which I was generally too shy to do. But as I nearly always wore 

a condom and found penetration difficult I did not much enjoy the 

actual coitus. I am fully convinced that if women had been more 

accessible, if I had not thought myself bound to use preventives 

in self-defense, and if the act had not been looked upon with 

such disfavor by those in authority over me, I should have 

masturbated less or not at all, and would not have been tempted 

to bestiality. When I was 22 I had coitus with a girl who was not 

a prostitute for the first time. I was violently excited and 

enjoyed it more than anything I had yet experienced, in spite of 

the facts that she would not undress and insisted on withdrawal 

before emission. On one other occasion only have I had coitus 

with a non-professional unmarried woman. Shortly after this I 

caught syphilis from a girl of the streets. I was circumcised and 

stayed in a private hospital for six weeks. It never went beyond 

the primary stage, and I have felt no ill effects from it, except 

that I have got a hydrocele in the right testicle. Of course, 

this incident necessitated the use of a condom on every occasion, 

and it greatly spoiled my pleasure. About this time a 

brother-officer older than myself made advances to me. He 

compared me to a Greek statue, and wanted to kiss me. I would 

have nothing to do with him, but was glad to have his confessions 

of homosexuality and somewhat surprised to learn that he was not 

alone in the regiment. I afterward fell in love with his sister, 

and he married and had children. He was bisexual in his 

inclinations, but was really in love with me for a short time. 

 

"I had little to do with professionals until I went to South 

Africa, and though I was fond of ladies' society, and liked by 

ladies, I looked upon them as something apart, especially married 

women, and never attempted to take liberties with them; though I 

used to with shopgirls, etc., in my cramming days, and had often 

been in love. In South Africa I first began really to enjoy 

coitus, and on going to India continued to do so; in fact, I 

thought sexually of nothing else and rarely masturbated,--perhaps 

once in three weeks. I would go to brothels wherever they were 

available, Durban, Cape Town, Colombo, Calcutta, Bombay, and at 

one time preferred black women to white. I used to have horrible 

orgies with my brother-officers, and on one occasion I ordered 

six women to my bungalow in order to celebrate my birthday, and 

made a present of them to five of my friends after dinner. During 

this period, and until I went home, I rarely spoke to a lady, the 

chief exception being No. 1, a brother-officer's wife, with whom 

I began to be in love. 

"Shortly after the South African War I fell violently in love 

with a young brother-officer, 'Z.' It amounted to a passion and I 


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