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CONTENTS
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-4
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-5
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-6
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-7
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-8
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-9
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-10
FOOTNOTES
LOVE AND PAIN-1.1
LOVE AND PAIN-1.2
LOVE AND PAIN-1.3
LOVE AND PAIN-1.4
LOVE AND PAIN-1.5
LOVE AND PAIN-1.6
LOVE AND PAIN-2.1
LOVE AND PAIN-2.2
LOVE AND PAIN-2.3
LOVE AND PAIN-2.4
LOVE AND PAIN-3.1
LOVE AND PAIN-3.2
LOVE AND PAIN-3.3
LOVE AND PAIN-3.4
LOVE AND PAIN-4
LOVE AND PAIN-5.1
LOVE AND PAIN-5.2
LOVE AND PAIN-6.1
LOVE AND PAIN-6.2
LOVE AND PAIN-7
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.4
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.5
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.6
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-3
APPENDIX A-1
APPENDIX A-2-3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3-4-5-6-7
APPENDIX B HISTORY-8-9-10
APPENDIX B HISTORY-11-12
APPENDIX B HISTORY-13
APPENDIX B HISTORY-14-15
APPENDIX B HISTORY-16
APPENDIX B HISTORY-17
APPENDIX B HISTORY-18
APPENDIX B HISTORY-19
INDEX OF AUTHORS

stomach and almost at once had an orgasm with emission, and 

experienced acute pleasure, though both he and I supposed that I 

had involuntarily micturated. I was 13 when this happened. I did 

it once more with him before I left, this time the other way up, 

so as to spare him the unpleasantness. I used to like kissing and 

hugging the smaller boys, and had a great eye for good looks. On 

going home for the holidays I masturbated with my hand out of 

curiosity to see what happened when the orgasm occurred, and then 

only did I fully understand the nature of the act. After this the 

rush and strangeness of a large public school distracted my 

attention, but I heard about wet dreams, masturbation, and 

homosexuality from the other boys, and soon became thoroughly 

initiated. I believe the tone of my house, if not of the whole 

school, was exceptionally bad; though it may only be that I saw 

more of it because I was attracted by it, and that other schools 

are the same really. Things involving certain expulsion if found 

out were done more or less in public, and I have myself openly 

got into bed with or masturbated other boys, and on more than one 

occasion have helped forcibly to masturbate small boys or to hold 

them while others had connection with them, the idea of the last 

two acts being that the boy would thereby be seduced and become 

available for, and willing to perform, homosexuality. Before I 

became big enough to have boys myself I masturbated frequently 

(on one occasion three times in the day), and invariably by lying 

on my stomach without the use of the hands. In having connection 

with other boys I used to do it between the thighs or on the 

stomach, and I never heard of any other way at that school. 

_Paedicatio_ would disgust me, and, moreover, would deprive me of 

the principal pleasure of intercourse, viz., the feeling of lying 

face to face and stomach to stomach. Of course, the satisfaction 

used to be mutual, but, though good-looking, I was never the 

passive party only, like some small boys who might be called 

professionals and whom I used to pay for their services. I went 

back after I had left and had a boy in the dark whom I had never 

seen before, having been told that he was all right. I used to 

have a very genuine affection for any party to my pleasure, 

though I took delight in torturing one in particular, but for 

what reason I cannot say. For one boy I developed a deep love, 

which lasted long after we had left school and had ceased all 

sexual connection. This love was as strong as anything I have 

ever felt since. 

 

"I don't remember whether it was while I was at school or later 

that I first began again to take a sexual interest in animals. I 

used to masturbate a good deal and was always trying to find new 

ways of doing it and new substances to lie on. It was while 

feeling the vulva of a young mare that the brilliant thought 

struck me of trying to copulate with her, and thus getting the 

advantage of the soft vagina. It afforded me great satisfaction 

and I had an emission, though I did not then, nor at any other 

time with any other animal, succeed in penetrating properly. I 

afterward did the same with other mares and with a certain cow 

whenever I got a safe opportunity, which was not as often as I 

could have wished. I have not had connection with an animal for 

about ten years, but would have no objection to doing so, and 

feel sure I could perform the act properly now. After I left 

school at 17, I occasionally had longings for boys, but it was 

the exception and not the rule. I continued to masturbate, but 

not to excess, and used to make ineffectual efforts to stop it, 

but never succeeded for very long. When I was confirmed, at the 

age of 15, I became intensely religious, and was so remorseful at 


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