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CONTENTS
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-4
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-5
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-6
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-7
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-8
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-9
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-10
FOOTNOTES
LOVE AND PAIN-1.1
LOVE AND PAIN-1.2
LOVE AND PAIN-1.3
LOVE AND PAIN-1.4
LOVE AND PAIN-1.5
LOVE AND PAIN-1.6
LOVE AND PAIN-2.1
LOVE AND PAIN-2.2
LOVE AND PAIN-2.3
LOVE AND PAIN-2.4
LOVE AND PAIN-3.1
LOVE AND PAIN-3.2
LOVE AND PAIN-3.3
LOVE AND PAIN-3.4
LOVE AND PAIN-4
LOVE AND PAIN-5.1
LOVE AND PAIN-5.2
LOVE AND PAIN-6.1
LOVE AND PAIN-6.2
LOVE AND PAIN-7
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.4
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.5
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.6
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-3
APPENDIX A-1
APPENDIX A-2-3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3-4-5-6-7
APPENDIX B HISTORY-8-9-10
APPENDIX B HISTORY-11-12
APPENDIX B HISTORY-13
APPENDIX B HISTORY-14-15
APPENDIX B HISTORY-16
APPENDIX B HISTORY-17
APPENDIX B HISTORY-18
APPENDIX B HISTORY-19
INDEX OF AUTHORS

 

 

HISTORY VIII.--"When I was about 8 years old" (states the lady 

who is the subject of the present observation) "I remember that, 

with several other children, we used to play in an old garden at 

being father and mother, unfastening our drawers and bringing the 

sexual parts together, as we imagined married people to do, but 

no sexual feelings were aroused, nor did the boys have 

erections." When about 10 years old she became conscious of a 

pleasurable sensation associated with the smell of leather, which 

has ever since persisted. At that age she was sometimes left to 

wait in the office of a wholesale business house full of 

leather-bound ledgers. She did not then notice the sensation 

particularly, and was certainly not conscious of any connection 

with sexual emotion. Menstruation was established at 131/2 years. 

Distinct sexual feelings were first observed a few months later. 

"The first feelings of love which I ever felt were at the age of 

14 for a nice, manly boy of my own age, who often came to our 

house. He liked me, but was not in love with me. It was very 

seldom that he would sit by me and hold my hand, as I wished him. 

This went on till I was about 17, when he went to the university. 

After his first term he came back and was then attracted to me; 

but, though I loved him very much, I was too proud to show it. 

When he tried to kiss me, I resisted, though I longed for it. 

Thinking I was greatly offended, he apologized, which only made 

me angry. All these years I was worshiping at his shrine and 

mixed him up with all my ideas of life." Whenever she was near 

him she experienced physical sensations, with moistening of the 

vulva. This continued till she was about 20, but the object of 

these emotions never again attempted any advances. 

 

At 19 she became engaged to someone else. At the beginning she 

was physically indifferent to her lover, but when he first kissed 

her she became greatly excited. The engagement, however, was soon 

broken off from absence of strong affection on either side and 

chiefly, it would seem, from the cooling of the lover's ardor. 

She thinks he would have been more strongly attached to her if 

she had been colder to him, or pretended to be, instead of 

responding with simplicity and frankness. 

 

During the next few years little occurred. She was working hard, 

and her amusements would mostly, she says, be regarded as rather 

childish. She was extremely fond of dancing, and she was always 

pleased when anyone paid her attention. She was frequently 

conscious of sexual feelings, sometimes tormented by them, and 

she regarded this as something to be ashamed of. The constant 

longing for love was affected little or not at all by hard work. 

"At about this time I was very fond of abandoning myself to 

day-dreams. I was very glad if I could get everyone out of the 

house and lie on an easy chair or the bed. I liked especially to 

read poetry, all the more if I did not quite understand it. This 

would lead me on to all sorts of dreams of love, which, however, 

never went beyond the preliminaries of actual love--as that was 

all I then knew of love." The only climax to her dream of love 

was founded on a piece of information volunteered by a married 

woman many years earlier, when she was about 12. This 

lady--evidently agreeing with Rousseau (who in _Emile_ commended 

the mother's reply to the child's query whence babies come, "Les 

femmes les pissent, mon enfant, avec des grands douleurs") that 

the unknown should first be explained to the young in terms of 

the known--told her that the husband micturated into the wife. 

She therefore used to imagine a lover who would bear her away 

into a forest and do this on her as she lay at the foot of a 

tree. (At a later date she accidentally discovered that a full 


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