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CONTENTS
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-1
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-2
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-3
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-4
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-5
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-6
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-7
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-8
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-9
ANALYSIS OF THE SEXUAL IMPULSE-10
FOOTNOTES
LOVE AND PAIN-1.1
LOVE AND PAIN-1.2
LOVE AND PAIN-1.3
LOVE AND PAIN-1.4
LOVE AND PAIN-1.5
LOVE AND PAIN-1.6
LOVE AND PAIN-2.1
LOVE AND PAIN-2.2
LOVE AND PAIN-2.3
LOVE AND PAIN-2.4
LOVE AND PAIN-3.1
LOVE AND PAIN-3.2
LOVE AND PAIN-3.3
LOVE AND PAIN-3.4
LOVE AND PAIN-4
LOVE AND PAIN-5.1
LOVE AND PAIN-5.2
LOVE AND PAIN-6.1
LOVE AND PAIN-6.2
LOVE AND PAIN-7
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.4
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.5
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-1.6
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.1
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.2
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-2.3
THE SEXUAL IMPULSE IN WOMEN-3
APPENDIX A-1
APPENDIX A-2-3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3-4-5-6-7
APPENDIX B HISTORY-8-9-10
APPENDIX B HISTORY-11-12
APPENDIX B HISTORY-13
APPENDIX B HISTORY-14-15
APPENDIX B HISTORY-16
APPENDIX B HISTORY-17
APPENDIX B HISTORY-18
APPENDIX B HISTORY-19
INDEX OF AUTHORS

HISTORY II.--The following narrative was written by a married 

lady: "My mother (herself a very passionate and attractive woman) 

recognized the difficulty for English girls of getting 

satisfactorily married, and determined, if possible, to shield us 

from disappointment by turning our thoughts in a different 

direction. Theoretically the idea was perhaps good, but in 

practice it proved useless. The natural desires were there. 

Disappointment and disillusion followed their repression none the 

less surely for having altered their natural shape. I think the 

love I had for my mother was almost sexual, as to be with her was 

a keen pleasure, and to be long away from her an almost 

unendurable pain. She used to talk to us a good deal on all sorts 

of subjects, but she never troubled about education in the 

ordinary sense. When 9 years old I had been taught nothing except 

to read and write. She never forbade us to read anything, but if 

by accident we got hold of a book of which she did not approve 

she used to say: 'I think that is rather a silly story, don't 

you?' We were so eager to come up to her standard of taste that 

we at once imagined we thought it silly, too. In the same way she 

discouraged ideas about love or marriage, not by suggesting there 

was anything wrong or improper about them, but by implying great 

contempt for girls who thought about lovers, etc. Up to the age 

of about 20 I had a vague general impression that love was very 

well for ordinary women, but far beneath the dignity of a 

somewhat superior person like myself. To show how little it 

entered my thoughts I may add that, up to 17, I fancied a woman 

got a child by being kissed on the lips by a man. Hence all the 

fuss in novels about the kiss on the mouth. 

 

"When I was 9 years old I began to feel a great craving for 

scientific knowledge. _A Child's Guide to Science_, which I 

discovered at a second-hand book-stall (and which, by the way, 

informed me that heat is due to a substance called caloric), 

became a constant companion. In order to learn about light and 

gravitation, I saved up my money and ordered (of all books) 

Newton's _Principia_, shedding bitter tears when I found I could 

not understand a word of it. At the same time I was horribly 

ashamed of this desire for knowledge. I got such books as I could 

surreptitiously and hid them in odd corners. Why, I cannot 

imagine, as no one would have objected, but, on the contrary, I 

should have been helped to suitable books. 

 

"My sisters and I were all violently argumentative, but our 

quarrels were all on abstract subjects. We saw little of other 

children and made no friendships, preferring each other's society 

to that of outsiders. When I was about 10 a girl of the same age 

came to stay with us for a few days. When we went to bed the 

first night she asked me if I ever played with myself, whereupon 

I took a great dislike to her. No sexual ideas or feelings were 

excited. When still quite a child, however, I had feelings of 

excitement which I now recognize as sexual. Such feelings always 

came to me in bed (at least I cannot remember them at any other 

time) and were generally accompanied by a gradually increasing 

desire to make water. For a long time I would not dare to get out 

of bed for fear of being scolded for staying awake, and only did 

so at last when actually compelled. In the mean time the sexual 

excitement increased also, and I believe I thought the latter was 

the result of the former, or, perhaps, rather, that both were the 

same thing. (This was when I was about 7 or 8 years old.) So far 

as I can recollect, the excitement did not recur when the desire 

to make water had been gratified. I seemed to remember wondering 

why thinking of certain things (I can't remember what these were) 


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