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man wished to rape her, and that she fought him in order to make
him more greatly value her favor, so wounding him.
Impersonal ideas of torture also excite her. She thinks Fox's
_Book of Martyrs_ "lovely," and the more horrible and bloody the
tortures described the greater is the sexual excitement produced.
The book excites her from the point of view of the torturer, not
that of the victim. She has frequently masturbated while reading
So far as practicable she has sought to carry out these ideas in
her relations with her husband. She has several times bitten him
till the blood came and sucked the bite during coitus. She likes
to bite him enough to make him wince. The pleasure is greatly
heightened by thinking of various tortures, chiefly by cutting.
She likes to have her husband talk to her, and she to him, of all
the tortures they could inflict on each other. She has, however,
never actually tried to carry out these tortures. She would like
to, but dares not, as she is sure he could not endure them. She
has no desire for her husband to try them on her, although she
likes to hear him talk about it.
She is at the same time fond of normal coitus, even to excess.
She likes her husband to remain entirely passive during
connection, so that he can continue in a state of strong erection
for a long time. She can thus, she says, procure for herself the
orgasm a number of times in succession, even nine or ten, quite
easily. On one occasion she even had the orgasm twenty-six times
within about one and a quarter hours, her husband during this
time having two orgasms. (She is quite certain about the accuracy
of this statement.) During this feat much talk about torture was
indulged in, and it took place after a month's separation from
her husband, during which she was careful not to masturbate, so
that she might have "a real good time" when he came back. She
acknowledges that on this occasion she was a "complete wreck" for
a couple of days afterward, but states that usually ten or a
dozen orgasms (or spasms, as she terms them) only make her "feel
lively." She becomes frenzied with excitement during intercourse
and insensible to everything but the pleasure of it.
She has never hitherto allowed anyone (except her husband after
marriage) to know of her sadistic impulses, nor has she carried
them out with anyone, though she would like to, if she dared. Nor
has she allowed any man but her husband to have connection with
her or to take any liberties.
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